Hannah Han!

taintdspirits @ 2009-08-10T21:52:00

2009-08-11T01:53:33Z

i'm starting to think going back to ecu was a bad idea.
because nothing has gone right.
i'm dreading this year and it hasnt even started.

reevaluation and realization

2009-08-07T23:41:10Z

i realize i am the one to try to make a friendship work.
won't somebody make the effort to be mine?

no.
then fine.

reevaluation
leads
to

change.

taintdspirits @ 2009-08-05T22:08:00

2009-08-06T02:10:17Z

so, i smile when he texts me and then i smile because i'm smiling because he texted me and then i smile becasue i know i must look like a foul smiling at her phone.

but he makes me smile, so who cares.

taintdspirits @ 2009-07-15T20:54:00

2009-07-16T00:55:31Z

i'm starting to think my roommate doesn't exist.

i am speechless.

2009-06-28T17:29:20Z

"So, I called Charlotte Russe and told them that you basically, next to my wife, you're the most amazing woman I know. I couldn't give them a higher recomendation...

I'm assuming that your application there means that Mke hasn't called you. I gave him your number.

Derek"

taintdspirits @ 2009-06-26T14:48:00

2009-06-26T18:48:40Z

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you
'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there

(Just look over your shoulders, honey - oo)

I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there
Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah

I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...

taintdspirits @ 2009-06-18T08:13:00

2009-06-18T12:14:22Z

you're an interesting addiction my dear.

taintdspirits @ 2009-06-13T18:55:00

2009-06-13T22:58:36Z

send me back to israel.
i'm an idiot for not extending my stay.
my parents tell me after i get home that they would have let me stay all summer.
fml.

my home is in america - my heart is in israel.

one love, one life.
lets get together and feel alright.
one place, one home.
you want to make it where you're going
you got to know where you're from.
--shi 360

someday i'm gonna make it happen
but if not now then when?
--michelle citrin

Don't believe everything happiness says.

2009-05-24T01:22:51Z

Nothing feels better than hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks, in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly

how in the hell did we get here?

have you even wanted to run into the middle of the street and just scream something but didn't know what you wanted to scream because you were so confused?

taintdspirits @ 2009-05-17T19:27:00

2009-05-17T23:37:34Z

i'm really over people saying they are going to "get back to me" and never do.
or people who say they're going to show up and never do.
and if i send you a text with a question, or a text that deserves a responce. you better to hell respond.
30 seconds out of your life won't kill you.
and don't come running back apologizing.
i'm done forgiving people who walk all over me.

friendship is a two way street.

friends are the people that showed up yesterday.
friends are the people who never fail to make me smile.
friends are the people who care enough to text back.

and being family doesn't give the right to not text back.

niki
briana
kaylin
cq
eric
taja
corinna
pittman
brian
lashelle
thank you.
<3

taintdspirits @ 2009-05-14T12:37:00

2009-05-14T16:37:35Z

Rushing and racing
and running in circles
Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand, and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear
In the blur of fast forward I faulter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart

Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by 
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Just show me
I need you to slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down

"you're what dreams are made of."

2009-05-12T19:56:03Z

Yes I understand that you're not ready for me in your life,
Do you understand that leaving you is gonna cut my heart just like a knife
Though our roads may take separate places somewhere down the line,
I'll be waiting for you patiently, hoping that someday..
You'll be mine

fml.

2009-04-29T15:18:24Z

Hannah,

I know you have been strongly considering transferring so you do not have to worry about out of state tuition. I was hoping to discuss this with you. I spoke to John Shearin and he has made it possible for me to offer you a sizeable scholarship if you are interested. You have been an EXCELLENT addition to the Dance 2009 production and I'd really hate to lose you. I think you have a lot of potential in this program and in Stage Management. Would you please call or e-mail me? My cell is 412-0715. I am in portfolio reviews most of the day starting at 10 am, but can call you on a break. hope to hear from you soon.

Jeni L Parker

Associate Scenic Designer, Paint Charge, Prop Master

Stage Management Area Coordinator

252-328-1212

this would happen to me right now. right when i had convinced myself that stage management is not what I love and is not what i should be doing. and of course i've already accepted cnu. now i'm so confused....i know its a sign....do i take it?

girls are petty bitches.

2009-04-21T21:48:51Z

just so you know..you're life isnt the only one thats important and why the fuck do you care if i injured my ankle. yes i noticed your "eye conersation." i'm not stupid. you are. grow up.

taintdspirits @ 2009-03-31T15:18:00

2009-03-31T19:18:36Z

boys are stupid and hurt girls.
that is all.

are you there?

2009-03-26T20:33:01Z

God
Are you there
Are you there
Are you there
Yeah
Are you out there
Are you there
Are you there
Are you there
If so where are you hiding?
I'm having trouble finding you

-imogen heap

taintdspirits @ 2009-03-22T13:04:00

2009-03-22T17:05:48Z

i am head over heels for this boy.
you don't even know.
and i can't even begin to explain it.

taintdspirits @ 2009-03-09T00:20:00

2009-03-09T04:28:25Z

i met a boy.
his name is Marcos.
you have to roll the R.
makes it sound sexy.
=)
and even though i only met him on saturday,
i smile really big when he texts me.

the best part is..
he likes me back.
=)

he's 21 and in the navy.
he builds helicopters.
he's taller than me,
and has a few dance moves stored away.
=)

but he just so happens to be my sisters boyfriends best friend.
thats a two sided sword.

but he's super sweet.
and cute.
he's a sufer from Cali.
he's says "Brah."
=)

i'll be the the best you'll never have.

2009-03-04T20:51:07Z

There's nothing I could say to you,
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me.
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart.

I was so in love with you
There was nothing I could do
Wouldn't give me the time of day
You said I was the best
Gave your love out to the rest
There was nothing I could say
You saw me as a friend
What you didn't see in me
Well, I will always be the best you never had.

---put it in the present.

ɪn eɪ rɪleɪʃənʃɪp! ɪn eɪ rɪleɪʃənʃɪp! bət nɒt wɪθ mi:!

I do not like this. I am trying to be happy for you, and I really am, but its hard. I want the best for you. I want you to be happy. But happy with me would make both of us happy. =/

fʌk maɪ laɪf.

stay strong.

2009-02-28T01:56:52Z

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything.

i cry a lot.
i have no friends.
i am getting no protein.
i have no interests.
i sleep a lot.
i cry a lot.
i miss people that care.
i miss people what want to be with me.
i miss having friends.
what happened to the little 5th grader who had everything?
i'm crying now.
and shaking.
i want my parents to come get me.
i never want my parents.
i'm not that strong.
i thought i was.
but i'm not.
i thought i could do this.
but i can't.
i hate my roommate.
i hate how shes hypocritical.
i hate how she has to always be right.
i hate how its only okay if she does it.
i wish i had friends mostly.
i miss friends.
i need friends here.
the olny thing i like is my ballet substitute.
and everyone else hates her.
why am i different?
what am i doing wrong?
what was i doing right in fifth grade when i had it all?
in 6th grade?
7th?
8th?

stay strong.
deep breaths.
calm down.
hang on.

taintdspirits @ 2009-02-24T18:48:00

2009-02-24T23:48:37Z

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

fuck. thats just how i feel right now.

2009-02-09T22:20:22Z

fuck my boss. fuck her.
but if i quit i won't be able to dance.
but fuck her.
fuck her for telling me i dont have to pay for dance classes,
then taking out $160 dollars for classes.
i dont know what to do.
fuck her.
fuck my life.
fuck.

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn’t healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

taintdspirits @ 2009-01-26T23:10:00

2009-01-27T04:11:11Z

Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away.

taintdspirits @ 2009-01-18T02:13:00

2009-01-18T07:14:16Z

In a perfect world, in another time
In a far off place we wouldn't need to justify
Everything we are
And all that we believe
We could finally be
Whoever we both want to be
And when we can't be heard,
And when we can't be seen
I will call you close and
You will reach for me.

When all of the beauty turns to pain
When all of the madness falls like rain
As long as we crash and we collide
We will be gorgeous, you and I.

Through the window pane,
Through the bedroom door
This city wants to fight
But it can't touch us anymore
We have come so far,
We have shed our skin
The more that's taken from us now,
The more we have to give
And when we can't be heard,
And when we can't be seen
I will call you close and
You will reach for me.

When all of the beauty turns to pain
When all of the madness falls like rain
As long as we crash and we collide
We will be gorgeous, you and I.

And when we are drowning in the noise
I'm gonna stop to hear your voice
As long as we crash and we collide
We will be gorgeous, you and I.

(We'll be gorgeous)
(We'll be gorgeous)
In the perfect time
(We'll be gorgeous)

And when we lose our faith
In all that's beautiful
You lift me to this place

When all of the beauty turns to pain
When all of the madness falls like rain
As long as we crash and we collide
We will be gorgeous, gorgeous, yeah

And when we are drowning in the noise
I'm gonna stop to find your voice
As long as we crash and we collide
We will be gorgeous, we will be gorgeous
(you and I)

And when I lose my faith
I don't know what to do
You lift me to this place
And make me feel so beautiful
As long as you're right here by my side
We will be gorgeous, you and I.

taintdspirits @ 2009-01-11T22:59:00

2009-01-12T04:03:09Z

i am pretty sure my heart stopped beating when you facebook IMed me.
and then i couldnt breathe the whole conversation.
30 minutes without air is a long time.
and i'm still shaking.
its the fact that you care.
i'm freaking out.
still freaking.
and then when i made you giggle....
for 5 minutes.
omgosh. that made me smile, because i made you smile.
still shaking...

ugh, i sound like a girl...